I just finished reading some of my old posts from long long ago. looking back my life has really changed. good or bad i dont know. last time i used to love squash. i could do both riding and squash. now i dont even know what i am doing. what more i used to look at life so simply. everything was straight forward not some complex web of half truths and feelings. i might have grown up a little. but i feel like a little ignorant kid at times.